March 31, 2011

Colorado Really?

Got some really sad news today so how do I deal with it....hhhhmmm I know goof off with my kids on the web cam. There were some really funny ones you know the kind where they make silly faces and what not but I didn't have one of those with all of us. So yeah about this sad news I am still processing it and well we got orders to go to Ft. Carson Colorado. I don't even know where to start on how I feel about it. I am not happy but I can't say that I am angry ether maybe a little sad but at the same time not really. Well enjoy the photos

I have found so much love in Tn. I found some of the best friends I have ever had in my life. I have a church here that has grown me so abundantly in my walk with God. I DON"T want to leave any of this. Happiness has always been a struggle for me to find however I have to say I do have  true happiness here. I know that a location doesn't define me and I am sure where ever I am headed will be filled with many happy moments. I am just trying to deal with the many feelings I have about moving. Yeah I was a milatary brat and moved many time through out my childhood, but just because I am use to it doesn't mean that it get's any easier. Yesterday as I opened the email my husband had sent I could feel my heart drop as I read the word orders. Yes we will be moving mid December to Ft. Carson and I am trying hard to find the good in it. It is just so hard to let go of this wonderful place. I will cherish the memories of this period of my life and who knows maybe one day we will be back. I still have a while before we leave and should make the best of it and maybe in time I will grow some excitement.  But for now I will look at my house that we just bought last May and start thinking of all the things I am going to have to do with it before it can go on the market. Just two days ago I was looking at it with eyes for design and making plans to decorate. I really really don't want to rent it out so I am praying for the new owners that will buy it later this year, they will indeed have wonderful neighbors and a wonderful house. I think this has been the first time I have regretted my burnt orange living room, I knew it would have to be repainted but never thought it would be this soon. So much to do and so much to think about. On the bright side at least my husband will be home for this move and I might as well just leave the boxes in the garage packed. Brighter things will come out of this.....I hope

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